Friday, March 9, 2018

Where, when, who?

Where does sexual abuse occur? 

You would be surprised. For me, it occurred in a yard, behind a shed, in living rooms, in bedrooms, at a "friends" house, on a bus, at an arcade. I trusted some offenders but not all. Some were public places, some were private places.  My point in this is not to scare you half to death but to make you aware that it can occur just about anywhere by anyone. You are now probably questioning where my parents were in all of this?! Shouldn't I have been protected? Well, they had no idea. There was no reason for them not to trust certain people, and they can't be with me everywhere I go. They did the best they could without knowing it was going on. 

I have so much tension right now. It feels like my head weighs 100 pounds. It's hard to relax, even when I lay down. I've been stressing about finding the right words to pray, thinking that I should pray specifically for certain things I need God to do and fix in my life. You know what, though? He knows what I need without me telling Him or asking Him. In the last 2 weeks, I've received such beautiful prayers and comments from so many beautiful people.  It's truly inspiring and encouraging - Thank you.  My goal this week is to just "Let Go and Let God". Seems so simple. He knows what I need. I'm working on doing this. 

PSA - talk to your children about sexual abuse. Make them aware of what is appropriate touch and what is not. Question their sudden withdrawn behaviors, lashing out moments, and sudden poor decisions. Also, be aware of the actors and actresses who strive to pretend everything is ok - and pray!

I still can't believe I am sharing this with the world. It's liberating and yet so stressful at the same time. I'm just tired of pretending. 

Love to all:)

Freedom, Singing, Hugs and Stares!!

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