Don't Be A Weed, Be A Flower!
Well, hello there. I haven't blogged since June 20th, 2024 so it's been about 7 months. Happy New Year! Today I think I'll just type about random thoughts and things that go through my head. If you've experienced trauma, you know the thoughts I'm talking about. The thoughts in your head that you have to fight off daily. The thoughts that remind you of your past/trauma, the mistakes you have made, strained relationships and the negative feelings about yourself. Match that up with strong faith, a belief in a God that is always with me, bearing my burdens with me. These two things play ping pong in my head everyday. It's a mindf*cK to have such a strong faith and also experience dark, disturbing thoughts. Why can't I shake that? I feel guilty. Sexual trauma or any sort of trauma seems to redirect your cognitive beliefs and thoughts. It changes you, wires you differently. Hold on to your faith. My therapist and I have discussed grooming and how the perpetrat...