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This blog - my perspective - my views - my pain - my suffering - my outlet - and STILL, I can't completely be forthcoming and honest with this whole, ugly situation. Secrets - It's what got me here. It's what keeps me here. Sacrifices - what I feel like I'm doing or maybe what I actually am. Denial - What some people stay in to cope. Causes pain to others; the untruth that's maybe too ugly to face. Silence - protection, fear, keeping some in a fixed position. When my abuse began when I was very young, I never would have thought that it would affect so much - becoming so intertwined in so many facets of my soul and life. I often wonder how my cognitive thinking would be, my trust levels, my freedom to feel my emotions, and my ability to express myself would be if I wasn't so conflicted in the innermost places of myself. I'm sick of the abuse making me feel inadequate as a christian, a wife, a mother, a sister and a friend. Again, my p...